Have you ever sat down and thought " what next"? What about crying over spilled milk? What good will it do to sit down and have a pity party for yourself? It may make you feel better for about ten minutes ,but have you ever wondered what it does to the people around you? There is not one struggle I have faced in life that has not blessed me . Your struggles turn into whatever you make of them, sadly it has taken 27 years for me to figure this out! I owe thanks to all the friends and family who has inspired me along the way( way too many to name) !
Getting to my point.......Be kinder than necessary because everyone you meet is fighting some kind of battle ... Our Beautiful disaster started like this.....Sept. 13, 2012 I get a phone call at work, while with a patient, there has been an accident with my husband( my better half) and I need to go to OCH immediately....Not knowing what the verdict may be(in my mind all I could think of was electrocution) Thank you Jesus it was not! I get to OCH , pray, and anxiously wait for my husband to arrive by ambulance.....I get a phone call from the paramedic that there has been a change of plans ..."Mrs Gilliland, we are taking your husband to West Point to get on the chopper" By the grace of God, my next question to him was" Is this life or death what do I need to pray for"? He then explained he had a terrible crush to the foot( the outrigger on a pole truck was accidentally let down on his foot and completely blew out the bottom of his foot)
I' m really sorry for all my weak stomach friends, but this is what we were up against. We were in Tupelo hospital for a week....Braylee's birthday was only two days away, so I had to cancel her party...Big thanks to my family for giving her a party in Jackson...Not only was I trying my best to care for my husband , I was also trying my best to hold it together since I was not able to love, hug, and kiss our youngest bundle of joy on her 3rd birthday....I was getting calls from school stating Madisyn was sick to her stomach and I couldn't leave to get to her...She was sick about her daddy, but also sick bc I wasn't home to do her hair and ended up saying " wouldn't your stomach hurt too if your hair looked like this....I can't help but laugh at her!! We spent a month waiting to see if Robby was going to have his foot amputated( a year later we are still waiting for God to heal his foot in whatever way that may be) he still has a bad bone infection that we just found out about ,so prayers are still greatly appreciated!! All in all, we were in the hospital 3 different times....This is just how Mighty our God is....the last two times we were admitted into the hospital ...the dr tell us the infection is bad, and in the bone he will have to have it amputated. Each time he came out of surgery it was a miracle....to this day he still has all of his foot...it still hurts and has still never had any correction surgery just debrement to get the infection out. I have to say that my husband was(is) such a wonderful patient, honestly, I think he may have had only 2 or 3 bad days during this challenging time for us. Lord, did I ever get tired of lifting a 70 pound wheel chair, shoo....sometimes I felt like I was on hidden camera as I would try to load and unload that dang thing.
One of the saddest things to him was missing out on deer season...We have a very special friend who did not allow it to happen....Blake reed, I can never tell you how much it meant to us that you allowed that to happen.....to me it was like make a wish foundation( not comparing a child's sickness to my husbands because there is no comparison) but to have Robby's wish come true....Blake set Robby a tent on the ground while Robby sat in his wheelchair and video the entire hunt...they were two little boys all over again..This was the verdict (I cry tears of joy as I write this)
In the midst of our hospital stays.... I was on my way to Jackson,they were admitting Robby into the hospital ( I was not able to go to that visit bc of work) I get a call from my dermatologist stating a spot came back as skin cancer (
Stay away from tanning beds and use sunblock not afro sheen)and I needed to have it surgically removed, Then I was selfish and asked " Lord what next"? Since December I have had over 30 spots removed, ten surgically removed and 1 plastic surgery...(waiting to have another surgery and plastic surgery in jan...( Ihave to wait until then since I'm thankfully at a new job) !! The doctors are confused as to why the skin cancer is all the sudden taking charge....this is one of the many spots
The only thing that keeps a smile on our face is of course faith, and knowing our girls are healthy! The thought of something being wrong with them is one of my biggest fears(as any parents) but I do miss my relaxing baths, I can't even take a simple bath at night without making sure I have no new skin cancer spots popping up( those of you who know me, know that my bath time is my time to simmer) Our faith grew stronger by the minute each day...this was one of the many verses that helped us on our journey
How true is this....We all have the same God who forgives us daily for our sins.....If God can sacrifice like he did for us, the least we can do is to thank him daily no matter what your struggles may be , because not only did he suffer a thousand times more than we do in any situation , he has assured us he will heal us, take care of us, and love us unconditionally....I love being a child of God
Remember as you are reading this and making your problems your burden....it could be so much worse....I'm thankful for our tiny problems.... After we learn to get accustomed to our new life style and bless the problems we thought we had we lost a very humble, loving caregiver, to the Gilliland family
What a time to cry and grieve, but also a time to rejoice for the life papaw lived...sometimes it's hard to understand why, I assure you God will give you an understanding eventually...this is papaw and Jeffrey(his son) ....Is this not the most precious picture ever....I always got the best hugs from these two..we were all concerned about Jeffrey and memaw after papaw passed, but through the support of the family and community the two stood firm in his faith and are both doing better than we could have ever imagined !
How great is our God right? This is one of my favorite pictures!!!!! Jeffrey is such a clown himself!
So now we lay our problems out to God each night and just
Trust him.. Which gives us all the more reason to laugh, love, and inspire others along the way...I don't know your story but I can tell you God is faithful !
Once again, Im thankful about Robby's accident, without his injury he would've had less time spent with our girls....He is the best daddy daycare! He has supper cooked and the house straightened ( I know he's great) I'm blessed....I'm thankful for my mind bogging , ugly scars, skin cancer..if someone sees what I go through maybe it will catch their attention and stop tanning before it's too late...I'm thankful for papaw's death because he is happy, healthy, and resting with The Lord ...I know he is watching over his entire family! I know this blog was extremely long , but I hope it was worth it!!! We love you all!
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